朋友不能跟医生一起走

谢谢你 常常为我两肋插刀
谢谢你们 常常像哥哥一样保护着我
谢谢你们 偶尔容忍我 偶尔纠正我
谢谢你们 听我倾诉
谢谢你们 陪我成长
谢谢你们 教会我许多事
谢谢你们 做我的朋友
做我的朋友很惨的哦
我常会给人家添麻烦

 知道我告诉自己什么吗
“想要回报你身边对你好或你爱的人吗？
那就好好活着并对别人有益处。”

现在的我还不是很清楚自己的心意
不过 我知道这种事 不能随便乱讲
所以 就暂时收在心底吧
反正现在。。。老话一句
考试重要~SPM重要~

老实说 我今天亲身体验到自己的判断
我之前就觉得男生跟女生之间的友情的确有差别
这也是其中一个我想当男生理由
男生的友情 有情有义（占多数
而女生也不是没有 但不多
不过我很高兴 自己身边的男生朋友 都很体贴 都很讲义气
我是说对我哦 不然我也没什么好高兴的 ^w^

现在的我 长大了 不可以再像以前那样那么小家子气
不能因为一点点小事 就吃朋友的醋
或者生朋友的气 觉得他们忽视我之类的
反正又不是第一次了
不过每次想到自己不属于任何一个人
就会觉得好落寞 感觉好孤单
世界好像只剩下自己。。。
就这样 不生气 只有感伤 只有替自己哀悼（（喂

对于人与人之间的脆弱感情
我不是不信任 我还是抱着希望
只是不勉强 不想钻牛角尖
很多东西 是我的就是我的 不是我的 在怎么争取 结果终究是一样的
只有珍惜才算是拥有
希望长大了的我 也学会珍惜。。。

时间久了 也是会累的
比如说 我这几天可以啃下许多的委屈还什么的
但可能明天就受不了 就又爆发了

我真的生气了

我真的生气了
气到没有表情

气到我想去死

这感觉就是吃醋！
我不是吃你的醋

我吃全部人的醋
是！我每次都不能跟你们一起出去！
是！我每次都有很多问题！
是！我从以前就很少参与你们！
这就是感情的无奈
妈的！我想珍惜的却根本理都不理我
把我当什么？！

不是很好朋友？
不管是谁都一样
我都不存在在任何一gang
也没有任何一gang容得下我！

我不珍惜的呢？有吗？
我自认为没有！

我真的越来越讨厌
这些烦人的事

明明已经很努力去说服自己
却又一次一次地看清现实

无标题

讲真的 不高兴不兴奋 那是不可能的事！
你like了我的状态啊啊啊
当然我知道你对我没有那种意思
只是这会让我觉得 :) 你不会讨厌我
这样就很开心了 ^^ 我已经开心了一整天 (V)
现在也不是像这些感情事的时候了
总之 我对自己说
不管发生什么事
开心的我就开心那么一下 或者推动自己更努力地去读书
不开心的 我就大气精神 别去想太多 继续加油~~
现在最重要的是我成绩

暂时先这样吧
我现在非常缺钱
加上老姐都不大肯借我了 /.\
我也不知道不好意思
但很多地方都需要花到钱。。。
没办法了 只好忍耐！

今天很高兴
^^很高兴能够有你们那么好的朋友 <3

HAPPY (?) DAY

I'm glad that our relationship is still in good condition :)
feel grateful to have a friend like you
and thanks for the encouragement too
you mentioned a word
DREAM this is what I want
I don't have much dream relate with the real life
I mean many are really that kind which we human can't make it comes true
but only this few... only them are real
which I could use my effort to comply it
SCIENCE although I didn't give up them but almost...
I won't give up them in my SPM results
but I know I don't have the talent
maybe I could easily understand what people explain to me
but I couldn't remember it rightly
I heard people said that memory could be trained
but I don't know how
so why force myself to do something I can't afford to?
although I dream to be a doctor or someone's job which could be related to conserving human's life animal's life or the Earth :)
I can still be saving them using my small little effort but not my brain
sorry it couldn't help much...
so I decided to do the second thing which I like
actually I don't like to draw since I was a little girl
until I know Manga and Anime
the way the cartoonist draw the character ... it was AWESOME ((I mean handsome LOL
and the story line is damn surprising and humorous XDD
At that time which I've started to watch KHR
OMG I didn't expect myself would like to watch such anime which full of battle scene
DAMN I like the way they present it
and once I've searched information for anime
I read the differentiation between Anime and Cartoon
then I realized why I like to watch Anime
but I'm lazy to talk about it right now :P
erm... so back to the time when I'm still a primary school student
I started to draw some picture which I copied from the comic
and I'm so happy when I get good comment from my friend
soo I didn't actually get any bad comment at that time
I didn't draw for a few years when I'm in secondary school
I don't know why... and I didn't watch anime until I'm form 3  0.0
after I've watched KHR and crazy about anime
I present the story line of KHR on my Chinese oral
and I prepare drawings for my presentation to make it more interesting
so I drew again at that time
and didn't take it seriously :(
until now I realized the importance of drawing to me...
I've forgotten something I wanted to say just now
but it's okay
hope I would be motivated again when I read my own blog next time...

oh ya some story for today...
sorry for another friend...
I think you won't read my blog too :)
so I wrote it here xD
sorry I've lied to you...
you asked me why I need to walk so fast
I answered you that my sister will be scolding me if I didn't get home on time
actually I just felt sorry to you and wanted to avoid you that time
I thought you dislike me...
but it's not seems you have talk to me :)

it's 2am now
and I'm going to friend's house tomorrow morning
some more need to go study after that
hope I have enough energy and clear mind to do that /.\

DEAR LORD please wake me up tomorrow
please let the alarm rings to my spirit XD
thank you God Father
good night and Amen ^-^

FED UP FED UP FED UP! GETTING FED UP OF BEING MISUNDERSTOOD

Actually I haven't finish my homework yet
but I'm lack of idea and words NOW

today one of my idols who is my BM teacher scolded me ._.
他没有直接讲 she just gave us some hint
and she didn't just scold a person she scolded some of us
so I feel like she's talking to me

what I've done?! I think I just sit at there and hope she could choose our group members to answer and get more marks or let us get more marks
so my mouth is already being shut for several periods of her except when I'm answering her question
KNS did she misunderstood me?!
because monitor sat in front of me today
then she grumbled teacher's unfair act
then she said some student did that
._. MD if she's not mentioning my monitor then it's me
HEY I didn't say anything you know?
please larr teacher, even I'd really said that, you're too sensitive larr = =

ohya an add-on
the 7th thing I'd want to do is COSPLAY!!!
if I have enough money larr